The only thing I worry about..

$$$

Busy: Occupied, Employed, Involved.

Here goes another rapid, time enthralling week! 

I'm not even going to bother with the list of things to do! (Cause lets get serious, you don't really care).

I HAVE SO MUCH TO GET DONE/STUDY/ATTEND/PRACTICE etc.

I'm late! I'm late! For a very important date!

School!!! Ahh, I have seriously so much to get done in only 10 hours. (I have been studying/doing homework for 6 hours already) :

• Assignment 1: Due Monday
• Assignment 2: Due Monday
• Module 1-4 Tests 
• Study for Midterm Friday

Not only do I have bootcamp tomorrow morning, but I also have to go pick-up my fixed phone and work until 1030. Looks like I'll be pulling an all nighter..

• Bootcamp AM
• Friday Midterm AM
• Work Saturday PM
• Baby Shower/Superbowl Sunday 

That means I HAVE to finish Assignment 1 and half of Assignment 2 Friday night. 

Not to mention that I would like to fit in a workout or two over the course of my weekend.. 

Sigh.

reward

I HAVE SO MUCH STUDYING TO DO!
This week I finish my second course (already I know).
I have 10 modules to remember for my final exam Friday.
Bootcamp Tues and Thurs along with work both nights as well.


Good thing I'm going to Lethbridge this weekend to let it all out!
Pirate party here I come!

ma.

So, growing up has its perks. However, those perks come with so much responsibility! Sometimes its hard to fathom how much I have to get done, and even though I finish one task, three more are added to my tedious and tumultuous list(s). I have been stressing over my student loans, visa, school in January, so on and so forth. Thank the heavens for my wonderful parents, who are always offering to help me, no matter what the situation. I seriously do not know what I would do without you. Especially my mom, who is always on the other end of the telephone when I call her crying, stressed out, or in a panic. She's always reassuring me, and convinces me that everything will be fine. Walking me through some steps, or consistently answering any and all of my questions. I'm coming close to being on my own two feet and she is without fail holding my hand, or taking a step back to let me learn on my own. I appreciate the fact that you are continuously here for me. I admit that sometimes I take advantage of that, and I'm sorry. I just simply wanted to say: Thank-you. Thank-you for being my support system, my therapist, my wake-up call and my best friend; wrapped up into one syllable: Mom.

nothing but time

Things to accomplish during my semester off:

• Complete drivers Ed. 
• Get license
• Start paying off Student loans
• $$$
• Get tattoo!
• Read 5 books:
• Jodi Picoult - The Pact 
• Jodi Picoult - Plain Truth
• Eckhart Tolle - New Earth
• Columbine
• The Happiness Project
• Register / Get accepted into SAIT for program
• Develop workout routine 
• Get admin job 

limited.

having to save for countless things this summer, is more than difficult. I love to spend, to shop; I don't know how I'm doing this..
Things I'm saving for:

• Drivers Ed
• Car
• Student Loan Payments
• Cell Phone 
• End of Summer trip
• Tattoo 
• Montreal

THIS IS SO HARD! 

budget

saving for a multitude of things, all the while having to bring my visa down, and having no money to have a social life. the sacrifices i have to make to be able to go where i want to go. and obtain the things i'd like in order to get there.
First on the list:

1. Buy first Car. 

options

I think way too much. I need to take a step back. Thankfully, i have no time for relationships and friends this weekend. its better if i'm alone.

Busy bee!

I will be working 3 jobs for the Month of May, plus soccer.
this should be interesting..

Jobs! =(

So, I have been mercilessly applying for jobs. Reception mostly, and I've gotten one call back, (thank-you dano). But I did not receive a follow up with that phone call. JUST HIRE ME ALREADY! wah. I'm trying so hard. I'm a "broke-joke". Save me.

Harry Potter

I love youuuuu.
However, you're the best/worst excuse to avoid studying haha.

UGH. SCREW YOU FINALS.

Jobs!

I'm a student just wanting to get my foot in the door! I'm looking for reception/administrative jobs. Its so hard applying/finding places that might consider a first year university student. this makes me a sad panda!
help?

March Madness

I dislike the Month of March for the following reasons :

• 1 Essay
• 4 Midterms
• 2 Plays
• 2 Production Reports
• 1 Primary Source Analysis
• 1 Workshop
• Countless readings 
• Not to mention the -25 to -35 degree weather we're having. 

"I think I can, I think I can!"

Is it Saturday yet?

I cannot wait until the wedding! My spray tan is all set (I'm dark!). My out fit is complete and my hair will look marvellous. I'm just full of self indulgence! haha. I just feel so good when I dress up. Love!
I am also excited for all of the out of town family! I LOVE YOU ALL!
Spiffy pictures of the boy and I ? Prediction: most likely.

I just need to get through:

• 2 History Chapters. 
• A philosophy tutorial 
• A philosophy Midterm 
• A rough draft of an essay
• The purchase of a theatre ticket

Then I get back to the reality of a month of academic hell.

let it be.

this is where i just chill the fuck out.
whatever happens happens. my biggest flaw is the fact that i feel like i have to control everything. or plan everything. note to self: just breathe.

to sum up:

i dislike long distance relationships with every fibre of my being.

I am my own worst enemy.

I am beyond way to hard on myself. I put others' feelings, before my own. And I shut down when I cannot handle anymore.

Christina : just breathe.

to the bone

i will defend my right to ask for the best. because i DESERVE the best.


right now. i just don't know what to feel and how to feel. my head and heart are sword fighting to the death. and i really don't know which i want to win..
this makes me cry. tremendously.