hearts desire

discovery!
self-love, disguised as risk.
grace; your human, learn to live.
capture, surf, and feel inclined,
to whisper courage towards the pines.
waves crash in, crash out,
deep blue to violet.
adventure made haste with
borrowed time from space.
move swiftly sweet serenade,
as the wind picks up your soul,
learn the tongue of kindness,
grace; your human, learn to live.

You Can if You Think You Can!

Belief.
In yourself.
In loved ones.
In the unseen. 
In strangers. 




It is the 'secret power' that will help you achieve your dreams.

patience.

Patience and fortitude conquer all things.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

myself.

come home. feel home.

Sometimes I lose a little faith about love. Real, deep love. Or I think maybe, it may have passed me. But then I realize, I have so much to love already.. Everything Happens For A Reason.

Listen. Love it!

Mumford & Sons - Awake My Soul
Lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all
But lend me your heart and I'll just let you fall
Lend me your eyes I can change what you see
But your soul you must keep, totally free

its about time we do this.

And call me presumptuous; but I can tell just by the way you look at me. I may not have been ready before, but I'm ready now. That may not be fair to you. I may have missed out but..

maybe you're out there..

yin & yang

just breathe.

2 am meditation was exactly what I needed.
inhale, exhale, inhale - hold, exhale...

future

After careful consideration, it looks like Land and Petroleum at SAIT is the next best thing. I really just want to start my life, right now! I want the whole package. But it looks like I'm going to have to wait a lot longer then I thought. Life is what you make it, so make it count.

if one door opens to another door closed.

in that instant

maybe in the future, you're gonna come back to me.

Seriously;

They say that true love is so hard to find 
Well I'm gonna take my time And I, ain't gonna rush into something 
To get left with nothing again 
That's what I said before 
Until I opened up that door 
Let you in, and left my heart wide open 
And now I'm just hopin'...




you don't want to know what i'm hopin'.

I'm a dog person.

Like an avid dog person. I grew up with retriever crosses. Gorgeous dogs. I have had this empty void for almost 4 years now. It saddens me. I love dogs to death. I would like one so very much my heart literally aches. When I go for walks/runs and I run into dog walkers, I stop and I pet and I ask a zillion questions about their dog. I need one.  They listen without judgement and they are loyal no matter what. Seriously, just typing this makes me tear up. I'm trying to convince my parents to get me one for my 20th birthday. They say no. But i'm persistent and relentless and I will soon have a dog to hold. I NEED dog to hold. I will not be truly happy till this void is filled. I have so much love to give. And a puppy is all I need.

Honestly, Who says 'No' to a face like that. 

Beautiful 5 week old Standard Schnauzer. 

and in my hour of darkness, mother mary comes to me.

whisper words of wisdom. let it be.


on another note; i hope you can forgive my insecurities that have taken over lately.
and i hope you can forgive my lack of motivation.
and i hope you can over see my lack of self esteem.
and i hope you can hang on just a bit longer.

hope.

right now. i can't let it be. right now. i don't want to sleep.maybe i need medication for my head. i can't stand 1000000 thoughts a minute. i dislike how i feel when i'm alone. as pathetic as it sounds. i was never really good at being alone. and having you in my life. being the bestfriend i've ever had. the best love, i'm sure i'll ever feel... i have so much more to lose. these are some of the 1000000 thoughts i have. this is why i can barely ever sleep lately.


p.s. to someone different: i'm trying. success is overcoming failure. - me. its normal to have doubts. but always believe in yourself. without that you have nothing. you can't believe in others, until you believe in yourself. - me.