Belief

There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills.

Buddha

I have learned my lesson, even though I should have known the first time around. I am in a better place because I approached the situation with maturity and logic. I don't regret anything I have done. I am who I am, and you are who you are. I do not need to prove anything to  you. Without trust, you have nothing. I am letting it go.

apologies

I'm sorry.

uncomfortable

I really don't know how to feel about any of this

mesh

Some friendships are just meant to dissolve. They're the people who pass through, and stop by. They can influence you in positive ways or negative ways and then you move on. Not just because you want to, but because it can just.. happen. One situation can make you re-evaluate the path your on, and you just realize, 'well this isn't going to work for me anymore.' I am ready to move on. If something so little can come between you and someone you thought to be a good friend, move on. Find new friends. appreciate more good things in your life. Yes, its sad and unfortunate; but these things happen. Take it with a grain of salt, grow from it and leave things on good terms.

ass face.

yeah , you.

finality.

i've taken the last breath of you. 

feels so good, to be this happy. 

in the past.

set fire to the rain

I knew it was the last time..

The thought of seeing your face today, made me more then extremely nervous. Putting all the love we shared in a recycle bag and handing it to you was more surreal then I ever thought it would be. However, actually seeing your face for the first time in 3 weeks and giving you the load I've been caring (figuratively) and handing it to you (literally) and walking away with a smile. Made me realize more then ever, that its over. It's finally over. And if I walked away with a smile and not devastation. It was never meant to be in the first place.

Over.

Listen. Love it

Adele - He Won't Go
I cant bear this time
It drags on as I lose my mind
Reminded by things I find
Like notes and clothes you left behind

And you deleted it..

which means you know you did something wrong.

I rest my case! BOOM

I find it comforting and pleasurable when i click "Delete this photo". .."Confirm".
I confirm that I'm sick of crying over nothing. So easy to remove you. Bye

Heartache.

I seriously, Cannot stop crying.
This hurts more then anything.
"I love you. I will always love you." "I feel like we're supposed to be together..this is hard."
"I guess this is why they say love hurts."
"It sucks. Cause everyone has said that we're so good together."


I'm supposed to marry you someday. We just need to work on ourselves. This sucks so bad, because yes, we are supposed to be together. Maybe us "sleeping on it" will make us stronger? Its just so hard. All of it. This. Us. You.
This doesn't feel right, but maybe its for the best.

It doesn't help that this song comes on MTV right after I get off the phone with you.. Back To December.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

when it takes over.

i'm so up and down about us lately, its sad. really sad. i'm sure of your love for me. and i love the person you are. but you're not the same person i met october 2009. you're different, your goals are different. the way you view life is very different.  "we're on different pages." this is the truth. whether you would like to face it or not. we aren't cohesive. and this frightens me. because as much as our love fills us up. this aching difference is slowly ripping at the seams like your favourite sweater that starts to fall apart. its disappointing and bittersweet. i just want you to see things from our future prospective. you can't just decide things for yourself. your decisions that you tell me, will effect us in so many ways.. I don't think you get that. i'm so sick of going in circles that its finally worn me down . i'm not so sure any more. as insecure as i am in myself, i was extremely confident in us. but now.. who knows.

"a&f"

why do we promise something we know we can't keep? 

What's wrong with being comfortable?

Sometimes when you're with someone for along time, there are ruts and holes you get stuck in. And sometimes you have to take a step back and really evaluate your relationship. I'm comfortable enough to be myself around you. Then again how much comfort is too much comfort? There is a very finee line between comfort and love. Are you with this person because you know you have a future with them? Or because you're madly inlove? My opinion: we are all too young to be THAT comfortable. You're not retired with this person. So what's the point in this? It's harder to leave because everyone enjoys comfort and sometimes the love gets lost in the comfort of someone elses arms. How do you know the diference between comfort and love?

fuck that.

who was i kidding?

i deserve better than this, right now.