Cons of living back at home:

Credit is never given, where credit is due. And by credit I mean praise. Not once since I've been home have the words "We're proud of you," come out of anyones mouth.
I'm still treated as though I'm not responsible enough for my self, my safety, my time.
I'm sick of fighting for a place in this house. Sick of fighting with you two because I actually have a life, and I can go out, and if I drink too much well, I'll have to suffer the consequences on my own. You can't control that. You'll never be able to control everything in my life. So stop trying to. Give me credit, where credit is due. Let me live my life. And be happy, that I'm happy.

Why is that too much to ask for?

dear boys of the world:

do i have written on my forehead "I WANT A RELATIONSHIP!" ?
I checked and there's nothing there.

pet peeve #6

when conversations of you arise. "What happened?" "Have you talked to him since you've been back home?"

No.
We broke up. i'd like to not re-live it. thanks.
I'm sick of being reminded of you. You are a great person. But, that only reminds me of how great we used to be.

honestly:

personality traits.

not my favourite kind of person: the person that is all about themselves. they can dish it but that can't take it. there's other people around you, be aware of that.

fuck you.

you're a gem. (not)

i want a woman thats on my page is that to much to ask??

Thanks for announcing this to the world 8 days after we break up.
Good to know you're already looking for another relationship.

By the way, i.f.s.e. Run and tell that.

ha.

 frankly i don't give a shit anymore.

nvm

i grew up making everyone else happy.
that stops now.

its time i stand up for myself, and do what i think is best for me. i don't need ANYONE telling me how to live my life.

and that sick feeling was right..

Just not the feeling i had for you. but that gut instinct that something bad happened.
i'm just glad you're safe. and that you have finally seen, what i've known to be true for almost 4 years now. you're right, "they are emotionally shattered." I'm just pissed off that you were there to witness it and that your life was put in danger. Like visibly upset. That is beyond frustrating. I guess on the plus side, nothing horrible actually happened.

AH!
* Insert scream here.

studying to me..

.. is like giving birth to 12 children. Naturally.

Now that i've expressed the pain.
I JUST WANT TO GET THESE FINALS DONE WITH!
2/5. Only 3 more to go.. =(

no names

it only takes one reminder to bring you back to the past. the past i wish to forget. the past i had with him. i can't take it back. any of it. i don't regret because well, it made me stronger. it made me part of who i am today. It still makes me sick, just thinking what he did. cheat. such an ugly word. fuck cheaters. all i ever did was wear my heart on my sleeve, and it took one little boy to take advantage. i get it, we're all lonely. some a hell of a lot more than others. but to constantly have another is too much. maybe thats all he wanted was some company. i could've been a friend to you, not someone you needed to use. ..However, in the end, Thanks. Sincerely. Every lie, every false sense of emotion you felt for me, made me realize how many people i had to fall back on. How strong i can really be. and how there's more to life than not being enough for somebody. I'm not going to be selfish and say i hate you. because that just makes me the same person as you. I hope you're happy doing whatever it is you're doing.
Holy rant. thanks for reading. =)

love

if its going to be like this: draining and hard and just a bitch.
i dont want any part of it.

priorities.

God help me if I ever take advantage of my family.
They're here now, appreciate it. If you don't, you'll regret it so much.


PS. I don't feel sorry for people who don't deserve it. Check yourself.

get it.

i dont want whats easy, i want whats fair.
and if i have to fight to get there,
then i'll pull some hair.
if you want whats easy, then you're easy.
if you're easy, i don't want you.
get it?
good.