when it takes over.

i'm so up and down about us lately, its sad. really sad. i'm sure of your love for me. and i love the person you are. but you're not the same person i met october 2009. you're different, your goals are different. the way you view life is very different.  "we're on different pages." this is the truth. whether you would like to face it or not. we aren't cohesive. and this frightens me. because as much as our love fills us up. this aching difference is slowly ripping at the seams like your favourite sweater that starts to fall apart. its disappointing and bittersweet. i just want you to see things from our future prospective. you can't just decide things for yourself. your decisions that you tell me, will effect us in so many ways.. I don't think you get that. i'm so sick of going in circles that its finally worn me down . i'm not so sure any more. as insecure as i am in myself, i was extremely confident in us. but now.. who knows.