honestly. all this honesty, has got a hold on me.
i'm not asking for big lies. i like how you're so into communication and the truth. but as soon as i bring something real up. or something possible. you freak. i know what i said made you uncomfortable. i'm sorry. but everything is happening so fast. and i still have insecurities. just mine. our relationship as a whole is probably the best thing thats happened to me in a really, very long time. thanks by the way. ha. but lately its been, 'what if he's happier with someone here.' 'what if we're so attached now, it'll be too hard when the time comes..' thinking. it pains me. i just have the biggest heart since you've been around. and i don't want you to feel trapped either. FML. i dont know where half this shit comes from. my brain, and the assholes that messed me up before i met you. you're just..right for me. and i know we'll be more than okay when i go to Lethbridge. We see eachother once maybe twice a week, with our different schedules. (i'm pretty sure i'm writing this stuff to reassure me... epic fail.) i know its hard now, and everythings tense and weird. but your optimism and my cuteness make for a pretty good team. we'll get through it. because i love you. and thats all that really matters.
ok.
i need to put up and shut up starting now.