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Holy Hannah! 

Just had an amazing weekend in Portland, Oregon. Drove for a total of 30 hours there and back. 

Now I'm sitting here thinking back on the weekend. A weekend that was more than influential, it was inspiring. 

I have had so much to think about. These last three weeks have been so heavy, because I made them that way. I put my self in a dark place without realizing how much it was affecting him. It was a very selfish place to be and a very lonely place to be. 

After three days, my attitude has changed. I have come to know that attitude is a choice. You must take responsibilty for it. No other person or circumstance is at fault for YOUR attitude. You are. 

I'm done with all of that. It will take a long time to filter and really focus on changing my mentality, but if I do not try, I will always be my very worst critic. 

For what felt to be seemingly endless negativity from my thoughts has slowly transferred over into  Positive thoughts. Which is so important. We get stuck in our minds and convince ourselves that we can't do it, we aren't worthy of it, we shouldn't be blessed with it. 

THAT IS A LIE.

Listen to your heart, and remind yourself every day that you are worthy. 

I felt for so long that I was not worthy of Ben's heart & love because of how kind, endearing, and thoughtful he is.

That is not true. I deserve it so much, and he deserves all of my great qualities. He doesn't deserve it when I hold myself back. And I should not hold myself back. 

It is time to release my potential and prove the nay-sayers wrong.

Hello life. 

It is time I start trying.