the blog fever.

Okay, so this would be my first blog, in what is almost three years.
apparently i was ahead of my time.

First I read all my old posts, and thought, "what the hell was I thinking?"
But, I was 15.. almost 16, and those ridiculous blogs reflect who I was then.
I honestly wish I kept this blog up this whole time.
You'd see every single transition and life altering circumstance that has happened to me since then.
I will briefly fill you in (in chronological order of course):

• the loss of a best friend, 
• getting caught under-age drinking by my father, thus resulting in a month's grounding,
• found out that Zio Frank has Colon Cancer (6 months left),
• grade 10, finished,
• 16th birthday camping trip,
• the reconnection to an old best friend,
• pot,
• a trip to ottawa, 
• penticton '07 with dee,
• Zio Frank passes away September 27, 2007 at 2 in the morning,
• heartache and greif consume my family, 
• depression occurs, therefore I begin to separate myself from those that mean the most, 
• homework begins to pile on, 
• Christmas 2007 not a happy time, 
• 2008. 
• lead role in the Theatre Arts 25 production: "Goat Song"
• looking forward to the end of the school year, 
• begin thinking about what university to go to, 
• ...if i go to university,
• meet Tyler, 
• start to fall for tyler, 
• meet Tyler's family,
• go to Tyler's grad,
• become bestfriends with tyler's bestfriends, 
• Tyler becomes known as liar, 
• heartache consumes me, 
• hold it in,
• trusting others, especially males, becomes difficult, 
• 17th birthday spent at home with 50 friends, 
• get drunk, have a good time,
• grade 11 is over, 
• Stampede 2008 known as "couples stampede",
• summer 2008 worked full-time,
• lost bestfriend is found again; s.m. 
• Grade 12 the end of one chapter, 
• halloween was filled with drunken slurs and good people, 
• flirting becomes an art form, 
• Christmas 2008 so much fun .. until we get a call Christmas Eve saying my Grandfather fell and broke his hip, 
• Nonno (grandfather in italian) is in hospital, 
• January 16th, 2009 Nonno passes away at 8 in the morning, 
• again, grief consumes my family,
• this time i turn to friends and family for support, 
• i learned the first time around, holding back does nothing but deteriorate your mental and physical well-being, 
• Los Cabos 2009 <3 ,
• preparation for grad, 
• finding a grad dress,
• ahhh grad, walking the stage, receiving a diploma! pivotal moment in one's life,
• deciding not to go to uni, thus, upsetting my father, 
• grade 12 is over as fast as it started,
• 18th birthday, 
• the only thing i remember is kicking over a camera on a tripod and running for my life,
• summer '09 filled with secrets, work, laughter and clarity. 
• september i decide to upgrade at SAIT, 
• october 24, meet mackenzie wakelam, 
• meet mac's family, 
• christmas 2009 doesn't feel right,
• new years eve 2010 spent with mac,
• fall down some stairs at school ripping a ligament in my right ankle,
• physio therapy, 
• no snowboarding, 
• panorama trip,
• get accepted to the University of Lethbridge, 
• accept my acceptance haha, 
• fall ridiculously in love, 
• finish upgrading at SAIT (end of april),
• 6 months with Mac, and it still feels like the beginning. 

I do not think this does my life justice in the last 3 years,
but thats okay. i can deal.

always love.